From: Courtnee Fallon Rex <courtnee@gmail.com> Subject: Now I understand Date: July 5, 2024 at 5:22:29 AM PDT To: Neil Gaiman <fucking-zionist@gaiman.net>
Neil,
Welp, I guess I finally know why in 11 years you never *really* shared anything significant with me about your personal life.
I guess in hindsight you would know better than some why calling coercion rape might upset people who had ‘really’ been raped eh. And pulling the naked thing on me the first day we met after Amanda ‘gifted’ you half her massage… boy. So much makes sense now, including why I was periodically so confused and questioning about our friendship and how I might categorize you in my life.
One by one the people who held space over the last decade for me to talk about how fucked up I felt about you are coming to see if I’m alright. The collective ‘aha!’ is resounding. Listening to these accounts and recognizing some of the same patterns in how you interacted with me is really sobering and, frankly, embarrassing. Thank god I was already in my mid 30’s before we met, but I sure feel for the people who weren’t.
I believe the women who have spoken out about you and Amanda. I’m embarrassed by my proximity to you both and how much of myself I shared with you over the years. I’m embarrassed that I allowed your asshole ex wife who I fucking hated for good reasons into my studio, into my head and heart. I’m embarrassed to be in her insufferable white privilege book as some kind of example of reconciliation when you’re both fucking terrible and selfish and predatory. I’m embarrassed that your name is credited on my art project about facing toxic masculinity and taking responsibility for nurturing it back to health.
None of the positive I spent the last decade thanking you over was worth abandoning myself and my intuition by accepting either of you into my life.
May all your victims, including those who do not come forward openly, see justice in your downfall. May the good people in proximity to you survive unscathed, and may this world witness the stark and immediate obscurity of you and every other psychotic piece of shit you’ve aligned with to get to the position of sunken power you’ve been in. Whether you see it clearly yet or not; The time for people like you to be running this world is over.
