Tree of life/Obsidian tango making my skin crawl. Still.
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Submitted by courtnee in status updates - 07.19.10 - 5:53 pm
The details are filling in, I’m days away from a script outline, and I feel the ball of vibrating energy rise in my chest every time I listen to the music. I want this show to plow right through anyone who’s fortunate enough to see it. That’s my goal; And I tend to get what I want. Submitted by courtnee in public - 11.11.08 - 4:08 pm
The big day is approaching. The nights get longer, more rich and dense, as what is affectionately coined ‘hell week’ (by my friends who are much better versed in the in’s and out’s of theater than I am) pushes onward. I see why one might call it that, and there is no place else I would rather be, or anything else I would rather be doing. Perhaps that is where the energy to press on is coming from – cause it sure ain’t common sense or physical logic. The show is, in a word, stunning. The creative process of putting this evening together has been flowing, expanding, fruitful and an absolute joy to watch. Working with others to this extent to project a vision into the world has opened me up to a whole new dimension of collaboration and possibility in expression as an artist and performer. It’s just been a total pleasure to direct this project, this fine collection of artists, under a veil that has encouraged their expression and ideas, and to be open to receiving the wondrous results in allowing the unexpected to unfold. Knowing that the person I was, even a year ago, could not have accepted this gift.. well. Let’s just say, I feel good right now. Really good. Did I mention how fucking awesome this show is? Obsidian opens this Saturday, Nov 15th, at the Little Red Studio. Tickets and a short description of the show are available through BPT and Little Red Studio. This is my first full fledged show. I am the creative director, co-producer, multiple hat wearer, and one of the main performers. If you like my work, it’s rather a given that you’ll enjoy this show. We are a tremendous crew, if I do say so. Come see it! It’s going to be friggin epic. And.. Thank you, for your support all of these years. Submitted by courtnee in public - 10.07.08 - 6:18 pm
..not really sure why. The main project of my life right now – Obsidian – is moving right along. We had our first rehearsal for the group Tango piece on Sunday, and holy crap is it hot. It felt so amazing to finally see it being performed, this vision I’ve had for months. I was giddy. Submitted by courtnee in public - 09.18.08 - 1:01 pm
About a week ago, at 8:30am on one of the warmer days we’ve had lately, I was riding my bike to work. While coasting from Mercer onto 5th ave, in the mild weather of that sunny morning, a single amber leaf floated to the ground in front of me. It was the first leaf of my fall, my absolute favorite time of the year in Seattle. I smiled. My body even tingled a little. Life is going so very well. I’ve been staying up too late, and procrastinating house things, but like usual am staying quite busy with all the projects I have going on. For a few months there, I was working 3 jobs, planning a show, doing hair orders, continuing with my Landmark curriculum, and working on my music show which hasn’t materialized yet. Now, I’m still doing all that minus the day job. I’ve got a couple paying aerial gigs coming up, one of which is for Bellevue Fashion week tomorrow night at Lincoln Center – I’m expecting it to be pretty swank and fun. It’s been an interesting experiment, posting a calendar online and asking people to utilize it. Though it’s the most efficient, effective way to run my life right now and ensure I keep in contact with people I want to stay in contact with during this windstorm, it’s not as personal as spending a few minutes going back and forth to set a time for getting together. Part of the process in trying online scheduling of sorts out has been wondering how much I’m bothered by that, vs. the idea that other people might consider me pretenteous and become offended. I’ve realized, that I really don’t have a problem with it at all – in fact, setting things up the way I have makes me much more accessible to those important to me than otherwise, and allows me less stress around my schedule. The time I spend with others become their time, and stays their time, and I feel MORE connected with them than before. So yay. go go gadget interwebs. :) Tonight is the big Obsidian meeting open to the entire troupe. Much of the show, probably 60%, is scripted and cast. Now that I have all that in motion, it’s time to build a cast at large to fill out the show and create the atmosphere of the world. I’m so excited – because Obsidian is a character driven show, there is opportunity for everyone involved to be performing. I periodically feel the vision breathing through me, at two months out from opening night. I’m looking forward to what manifests this evening. In other news, I recently found by a rough-tongued and quite rude awakening that Norda has developed a taste for vagina, and that I have to wear underwear when I sleep. Oh yeah. I went there. Submitted by courtnee in public - 09.12.08 - 11:45 pm
Ohhhmmgghodddd.. I just found the song for the double trap act in Obsidian. *orgasm* http://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/43483 Submitted by courtnee in public - 09.04.08 - 12:46 am
This is a very fertile, active time. They all are really. I’m noticing it a lot in circumstance right now. I’m bursting with creativity, especially in my wigmaking. I just completed an order (style wise, still needs some finishing touches) that really has my eyes sparkling for making more kickass hair for people. I have three more in the works. Obsidian is tremendous. It’s a tremendous social challenge, to lead how I wish to lead rather than how habit would direct me to. It’s a tremendous creative challenge, to bring into reality what I’ve created in my head as snippets and sensations of atmosphere. It’s a tremendous gift. To me, to the cast, to the studio, to our audience. And it’s so much damn FUN, too. Even figuring out the challenges. I’m noticing that it may be such that while I’m intelligent and analytical, I tend to only ENJOY being those things when it’s cause for realizing my artistic side. I may be more in my element with artists than with ubergeeks. I never would have really considered that, until this project, and seeing so many people just.. get me. Just get where I’m coming from. It feels awesome. Thank God there are so many art/geek fusions in Seattle. I’m training my replacement at work. In doing so, I’m realizing just how much I care about my job. I’ve discovered that I actually hold some passions for medicine. I’m not sure why this hasn’t occurred to me in this way before, especially considering I spent 18 months and +$15,000 in massage school recently, but there you go. Strangely, I’m also realizing that it’s unrealistic for me to rely on a private massage practice in any substantial financial way. My body simply cannot do 8 hours of table massage a week. I actually feel rejuvenated by the realization. It’s been stressful contemplating how to possibly make a living at massage full time. Speaking of medical stuff – The pap and STD screening I urgently scheduled recently came back abnormal. I went in for my biopsy today, and not only am I Batman, apparently I have a cunt of steel as well. Rather than the typical wham bam cough and punch-tool, the thing held onto me like a fucking rabid terrier mouth molesting a sock. In two tries we still hadn’t gotten the sample, and I had catapulted from mild mannered adult (I’d done amazingly well, for those who know me – no one holding my hand, either!) to quivering big-eyed ouchie sorta-laughing child. MEW! Life is hard. I’m fine now. Getting up at 6am to make the appointment was worse. I’ll just keep telling myself that. Someone I had a drink with recently said something that’s been touching me ever since, about how my photos don’t do me justice; in that I have a kindness and vulnerability about me that doesn’t come across. They added that they felt the opportunity to see it a privilege. Wow. Hard work does pay off. What a lovely compliment and attestation to the hard work I’ve done. Now piss off. My guts hurt and it’s time to go. Submitted by courtnee in public - 08.18.08 - 4:57 pm
I’m not writing much. Things are great. I’m rather busy with hair orders, paintings, directing my show, choreographing acts, training aerial, performing music, doing spa sessions, learning french (:D), wrapping up my stead at the chiro office and thoroughly enjoying doing what I love to do. Obsidian opens Nov 15th at LRS and is going to be un-fucking-real. Not only is the show, cast, and the energy around the planning of it amazing, I have the freedom to swap roles between the two main female characters throughout the run. One is a sparkling starlet who loses her dearest love and commits suicide – the one I identified with while I was brainstorming the show last year. The other is an obsessive murderess who loses what she built on falsehood, as well as her mind. Both of them are dramatized fragments of my personal story. It’s an amazing opportunity to be able to play both. You’ll have to see it twice! It’s looking solid that I’ll be performing solo silks at a party Halloween night – as the witch Paculla Annia. Umm.. score. Wine and buttsex or death! Everywhere I go, I see art. My art. It’s in my head and on the walls and in the air. It’s under tables and in my food, gritty under my nails and between my newly fixed teeth. It’s on my tongue and at the tips of my fingers. Its vibrating up my legs when I walk, sweeping across my face as my hair grows. Mmmm god I love my life. Didja miss me? |
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