Life has been remarkable lately, and I’ve been well beyond busy in the best of ways.
All my memorable existence I’ve focused on fixing and changing, transforming, inventing, regenerating. Every couple of years, I quite literally reinvent my life. Rarely do I change only my job, or where I live. Often I dismantle to the bare bones, and build up again. I really dig it and I enjoy living my life that way, manipulating and testing different configurations, trying new things, playing new games.
After a couple of tries over the last few years, I am so pleased to be cruising smoothly at single and absolutely adoring it. I’m finding myself open to connecting with people on a community level unlike any way I’ve been before, tripping over a lot less baggage in my hallways, having more energy, and seeing a real difference being made in my contributions to those around me.
I’m over half way through the curriculum at Landmark and still getting nice chunks of meaty goodness out of each session I do there. It’s most definitely one of the most rewarding and life affirming things I’ve done. It’s like a version of the work I’ve been doing for most of my life, distilled to a basic fluent language. I’m having exactly the kinds of conversations I thrive on, and the distinctions I’ve gotten from the experience have been immeasurably worthwhile. They’re basically doing what I’ve historically done with people in my life who often weren’t asking for it, better than I ever have. I’m learning how to coach with finesse and grace.
Obsidian is taking on its own life now. Vibrating and breathing. The visuals come hard and fast and I’ve begun filling in the cracks of staging and lighting for the acts that are already scripted. I’m finding that it’s best to do cool-down exercises after the meetings and discussions about it much like I’ve done in acting when it’s time to let go of an intense character. It’s exhilarating and fascinating and I’m loving working with such a large, diverse group of people. The ideas they are coming up with are inspiring, and I’ve been pleased with my own ability to communicate my vision effectively, with a sense of inclusion and contribution to the group. I often feel an overwhelming gratitude toward those entrusted and entrusting during this adventure that’s so deeply close to my black little heart.
My massage license is official. I start seeing clients officially this Friday, and in two weeks, I am no longer an office manager. I have every confidence in myself and am excited to get along with this new venture, and entirely new chapter in my extraordinary life.
I am singing and practicing music quite a bit, and again brainstorming a full n.a show in the near future. Fun times!
